Nik Nak

A Quick Smile :)

2012-02-15T12:30:00.000-08:00

sO cUTE

VDay Over

2012-02-15T01:11:00.001-08:00

Valentines Day is now over and I spent this romantic of days in bed. Lol. Only because I am sick with a bad cold.
Ugh. This cold sucks, being sick sucks.
Not much to say. I have been in and out of bed, sleeping randomly. I woke up early and sent Valentines type of photos to my sisters and closest cousins via FB. Thought about sending to my brothers but they wouldn't really appreciate it as much as my sisters would.
Bored and unable to sleep I added up the people I work with on 6. I would have loved to have send them Valentines but I am still awkward with them. I love them all on 6, they make me laugh and try to get me to talk, and I love that they try. Even with my 3West family, I love them to death but I am still closed off. Too shy and too quiet, that's me.
Texted a few friends for a Happy Valentines and sent one personal photo I made out of magnets on my fridge. The Valentine I sent to Hansung (aka Yan) had to have a personal touch because he is my most favorite friend. A good friend to have, a nice friend to have.
:D
Yup. What else... I can't sleep again... What can I say?? Slash write??
I miss my Kinz, my fun loving Cousin. Need her energy and presence to boost me up. I miss Wales, my Goof of a cousin.
Wish they were here.

Made me Laugh

2012-02-10T01:11:00.000-08:00

The top rated comment made my day

Christian Group Says 'I'm Sorry' at Gay Pride Parade in Chicago

2012-01-27T14:33:00.001-08:00

I honestly teared up on this photo. I believe in God with my entire heart and I believe in love with my entire heart.

Gemini :)

2012-01-22T18:16:00.000-08:00

JUNE 16, 1987

:) GUILTY

tHE BOLDER tHE BETTER

RUKI

2012-01-19T22:28:00.000-08:00

OMG I am so ****** ** by Ruki

Ruki of the Gazette's. I have had a tiny fascination with the Gazette's for a while now. Just looked at them with awe but never looked into it. Watching MV of the Gazette's I found Miyavi and WHOA, fell for Miyavi big time.

I <HEART> RUKI .... lol. Seriously the SEXIEST 5'3" man alive. So beautiful, so bold, so sexy.

SCHWING :)

Yes It Is :)

2012-01-19T00:57:00.000-08:00

1: Are you a virgin? LOL...

2: What are you majoring in? Majoring in... LIFE

3: What's your sexual orientation? Straight as an arrow

4: Are you crushing on anyone? If so, who? I am Nicole, Its what I do. lol. Yeah..

5: What's the cutest thing someone's ever done for you? In High School I was in a cast and there was finals in the gym. The guy I had the hugest crush on seen me and made everyone stop just so I could pass through to get to my desk.

6: What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die? Seoul, South Korea. ... Paris, France. ... Tokyo, Japan. ... Bora Bora. .... Hong Kong, China.

7: What was the scariest moment of your life? Of my life?? I do not know the scariest. Last time I was scared was when I heard banging on my door here at my townhouse over the summer. I go check and no one is there. I go up stairs to my room and all of a sudden I see a man standing on my balcony peeking at me through the window. I heart stopped. Then the man waved and said, "Its me." ... It was my stupid brother Chris. I now know a person can climb to my balcony.

8: If you could take something back that you said or did, what would it be? Aw, these questions are hard. I would like to take back ... There are tons of things I wish I could have said... take back, hmmm.

9: Do you think that the person who sent you his number was cute? What?? lol, the last person that sent me his number was very cute. very hot. lol. Brendan the Korean guy that met me so he could sell me some movies. lol.

10: If you had to name three important details about you, what would you say? 1. I come off as shy/quiet and I am. But once I start to feel comfortable around a person or people I will be more open and then they can see I am not normally a quiet person. 2. I believe in promises. Tell me to make a promise and I will keep it. shhhh. 3. I am Cree, Native American (& Proud of it) but I do not ever want to be with someone of my own kind.

11: Are you allergic to anything? If so, what? All my life I was pretty sure I was not but then just a month ago I broke out in hives... I think I am allergic to something but I have no idea what.

12: Have you ever been in love? If so, are you still in love? Sort of. I never fell in love but I think I loved someone. Oh and I am not currently in love.

13: Do you like sports? If so, which ones? I do not.

14: What are four things you can't live without and why? My family, my iPhone, my laptop, and maybe chocolate lol

15: Do you have a facebook? Yes I do

16: What do you like to do in your spare time? Internet stuff... walk...read... clean up... I am not an exciting person.

17: What are your biggest fears? Zombies and loosing my mosom.

18: What are two of your biggest weaknesses? A good looking guy... A nice & good looking guy

19: What are your three biggest insecurities? my body, my lack of wild behavior & social skills, I do not think I am pretty

20: If you could write anonymous letters to three people, who would you send it to and what would you say? To the 2 guys I like at the hospital "Hey I like you".... and my third letter would be to Katie "Hey you're cool" .... lol, I can't think of anything deep to write. too tired.

SLeep Time :)

Just A Dream

2012-01-15T05:46:00.000-08:00

I woke up sad this morning.
I had a dream and it made me cry. I dreamed that my big brother Justin called me on my cell phone. I answer the phone, I hear his voice and I just break down crying asking him to come back.
In my dream I was aware he had passed away, I was aware the call could not be real... but I cried and begged him to come back. To try. He just talked to me... tried to make me feel better.
I woke up and realized that the phone call was not real.
I miss you Justin. Always.

Movies

2012-01-12T22:51:00.000-08:00

Last movie you watched? Puss in Boots :)
Last movie you saw in theaters? Might have been Johnny English... haven't been to a movie in a couple months
Best Action movie? War of the Worlds... or Dark Knight
Best Comedy movie? 30 Minutes or Less... or Ace Ventura when nature calls :D
Best Drama movie? Curse of the Golden Flower
Best Romance movie? Koizora (never cried that much over a movie)
Favorite Actor? Liam Neeson, Johnny Depp, Gary Oldman
Favorite Actress? Natalie Portman, Bryce Dallas Howard, Keira Knightley
Worst movie? Don't Mess with the Zohan (I fell asleep in the theater watching that movie)
Best movie? Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, House of Flying Daggers
Last movie you kissed to? I never kissed to a movie...
Who was the last person you went to a movie with? Steph?? maybe... I can't remember seeing a movie
Your favorite movie theater? The only one I go too... Scotiabank at the mall.
Do you have Netflix? No I do not... I would if I knew how to use it.
Favorite movie character? Character? hmmm.... James Franco's character Saul in Pineapple Express ... so funny
Best line in a movie? 2 From Lord of the Rings... not really lines, more speech like. I cry every time on both scenes. I am such a dork. I can't watch these scenes with company... fear I will be made fun of. Theodens speech makes me cry most. idk why. lol

1. GANDALF: End? No, the journey doesn't end here. Death is just another path, one that we all must take. The grey rain-curtain of this world rolls back, and all turns to silver glass, and then you see it.
PIPPIN: What? Gandalf? See what?
GANDALF: White shores, and beyond, a far green country under a swift sunrise.
PIPPIN: Well, that isn't so bad.
GANDALF: No. No, it isn't.”

2. Theoden: "Forth! Down fear of darkness! Arise! Arise, Riders of Théoden! Spears shall be shaken, shields shall be splintered! A sword day... a red day... and the sun rises! Ride now... Ride now... Ride! Ride for ruin and the world's ending! Death!"
Theoden and Rohirrim continue to yell 'death' until the horn is blown and they charge onto the Pellenor Fields.

Last movie you fell asleep in? Caroline...the cartoon movie. I seen it with Josie a few years ago and I just got off work. I was mad I fell asleep because I really wanted to see it.
Last movie you saw while having sex/making out? I just laughed. No such thing ever happened.
Best kiss scene? Best Kiss Scene ever is Will and Elizabeths wedding kiss in Pirates of the Caribbean3.
Best death scene? lol... Ah PeeWee's death in the Buffy the Vampire Slayer movie... Always makes me laugh
Best soundtrack? Umm, I don't pay attention to soundtracks.
Best director? James Cameron
Worst director? Uwe Boll, seriously I can't stand his movies. I think I own one though.
Old movies or Newer movies? Newer as in movies I have not seen yet. Like Koizora. It was made in 07 or 08 and I loved it.
Best actor/actress of all time? Gary Oldman
Do you watch the Academy Awards? No I do not. I just wait for IMDB to post who won.
Indie movies or mainstream? I love both.
Do you watch foreign films? Yes, my foreign film collection is biggest.
Last movie bought? Detective Dee and the Mystery of the Phantom Flame.
Movie watched the most? Beauty and the Beast. I am never tired of this movie.
Famous actors/actresses met? I met Dani Filth, he was in the movie Cradle of Fear. lol he was just walking around West Edmonton Mall trying to be all normal but I knew it was him. Got an autograph and photo with him.
Movie you wish you couldve been in? Lord of the Rings.
Used movies or new movies? Both
Best cinematography? House of Flying Daggers
Best horror film? Resident Evil
First DVD ever purchased? Darkness Falls... it was stolen
Favorite DVD purchase? Death Note 1&2, that started my whole foreign film collection.
Movie you want to see? Your'e my Pet(Korean Movie)
Movie you were forced to watch? 30 minutes or Less by my brother and Jamie. I love it.
Best movie poster? Takers... lmao, only because it is the worst photoshop movie poster I have ever seen.
Last movie borrowed from friend? I never borrow, I own.
How many DVDs do you own? I had 500 but I sold half last year. But it is slowly going back up.

I Strongly Love Koizora. Saddest movie I have ever seen. I own it and have only seen it once because it was too sad the first time.

Miss You

2012-01-10T15:40:00.000-08:00

2Years Ago Today my step-mom passed away.
I miss you Rena Ben-Dillon.
Thank You For Shawna, Alex, Brenden, Jolynne & Hannah

(O_o)

2012-01-09T23:58:00.001-08:00

Fell In Love

2012-01-05T18:05:00.000-08:00

I fell in love with this song :)

I found this song on a RIP Ben Breedlove tribute

I guess I fell in love twice. Once with this song and once with the story Ben.

Love It

2012-01-04T17:55:00.000-08:00

Made by my sister Alex

Absolutely Love It

2012

2012-01-01T00:30:00.000-08:00

So, are you excited for the new year? I ... Umm, No
What was your favorite thing about this past year? My September trip to the states.
Did you fall in love this year? No?? :)
Did you get your heart broken? LOL Kinda :)
Go somewhere exciting? Vegas !!!!
Did you have a resolution for this year? 2011 No
Did you keep it? Did not have one
Did you dye your hair? No
Lose any friends? Yes
Make any? Made Lots
How much do you think you changed? I do not think I changed
What month was your birthday? June
Was it special? No, stayed the same
Anything you regret NOT doing? Taking proper ID to Vegas lol
What are you most thankful for this year? My position at work
How many significant others did you have? None :)
Who are you going to kiss at midnight? No kiss this year
Who do you WANT to kiss at midnight? A guy from work lol. Only see him on weekends because I think he only works weekends.
What is your resolution for next year? Mmmm cook different things
Who's house are you going to party at? No party for me. Staying home with my family
Going to watch the ball drop on TV? No
Will this year be better than last year? I hope so :)
What are you most looking forward to next year? Vegas trip in April
Is there anything you are not looking forward to next year? my position ending in August lol
What was the best song of last year? Grenade Bruno Mars
What was the best TV show of last year? True Blood
What was the best book you read last year Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden
What was the best film of last year? Harry Potter

Music

2011-12-29T21:47:00.000-08:00

I Want to Hold Your Hand- The Beatles
Joey (Concrete Blonde) for Mom... lol "Daddys Girl" by Red Sovine for my dad. My Kokom dedicated this song to me once on my birthday. so funny.
Earliest song I remember is "I'm in a Hurry" by Alabama. It was my favorite song when I was a kid. I still love that song.
I wish I could play the Piano. Sounds beautiful.
Whatever you Like by TI... use to be my favorite but now just annoys me
I use to not like "Yellow" by Cold Play... now its ok
My favorite Album of all time is... Backstreet Boys first Album, thats my childhood right there.
Favorite music artist is ... it is hard to name just one... right now I have to say Bruno Mars, love love love love him :)
Breathless by Shayne Ward ... oh so romantic
Music Celebrity... Katy Perry.
Both :D
Hmmm... They would be surprised to find songs by artist they never heard of before. I love cover songs I find on youtube.
Tie between Katy Perry and Lady Gaga
Last song I heard was Breathless by JRA cover from Shayne Ward. I like his version better.
least played song is Cut by Plumb... I listened to it too many times that I am now sick of it. I will love it again.
I never cried to a song. A song I find sad is ... nothing comes to mind right now.
Right now a song I really love is ANOTHER HEART CALLS... by All American Rejects
Please a song I want to hear

I'll Never Ask for Anyone but You :)

Which Disney Princess Are You?

2011-12-28T20:12:00.000-08:00

Which Disney Princess Are You?

Belle
[] You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like.
[X] You’ve been lost in the forest.
[X] You love to read.
[] You are not shy at all.
[X] One of your family members is a bit weird.
[X] You have done volunteer work.
[X] You have a wild imagination.
[] You love to take care of people in need.
[] You’ve had guys like you only because they think you’re pretty.
[] You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out.
Total: 5

Rapunzel
[] You’re an orphaned child or have an evil mother.
[] You have many different hobbies to keep you busy.
[] You can get really bored.
[] You have very long hair.
[] Your hair is/was bright blonde.
[] You’re an artsy person.
[] You’re childish.
[] You can’t wait to stop the same routine each day and start living.
[X] You care about others and their feelings.
[X] You like to follow the rules.
Total: 2

Alice
[] You have/had a pet rabbit.
[] You love to play cards.
[] You constantly know the time.
[] You get yourself in sticky situations.
[] You have been to a court.
[] You have fallen asleep while doing your homework.
[] You have had a tea party.
[] You like hats.
[] You’re late.
[] You know how to play croquet.
Total: 0

Jasmine
[X] Your dad is rich.
[] You are very clever.
[X] You’ve been with someone way different from you.
[X] You’d never marry someone just because they were rich.
[X] You have set a lot of goals for yourself.
[] You don’t have a lot of (good) friends.
[X] You’re independent.
[] You are wealthy.
[] Your parents try to control your life.
Total: 5

Megara
[X] Your boyfriend/crush is strong.
[] You have gotten involved with the wrong people before.
[] You are very convincing.
[] You have fallen in love before.
[X] You have had your heart broken.
[X] You find an interest in Greek mythology.
[] You lie sometimes.
[] You pretend to be someone you’re not.
[X] You have been used.
[] Purple is one of your favorite colors.
Total: 4

Ariel
[X] Your parents expect a lot from you.
[] You really try to follow the rules, but it’s hard for you.
[] You’re a bit of a trouble maker.
[X] You love to swim.
[] Your favorite animal is some sort of sea creature.
[] You collect something.
[] You have/had long hair.
[] You are adventurous.
[X] You’re extremely curious.
[X] You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible.
Total: 4

Aurora
[X] You live/have lived with someone other than your parents.
[] You almost died at a very young age.
[] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful.
[] You have a decent singing voice.
[] You like to sleep in late on the weekend.
[] You spend most of your time outside.
[] You’re adopted.
[X] You’re very romantic.
[X] Pink is one of your favorite colors.
Total: 3

Cinderella
[] One of your parents is dead.
[X] You are expected to do a lot of chores.
[] You love to dress up.
[] You love animals.
[X] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming.
[] Your mom is really strict.
[] You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you.
[X] You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes.
[] You have left your shoes at a friend’s house before.
[] You have/had blonde hair.
Total: 3

Snow White
[X] Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you.
[] You’ve almost been killed.
[] You have at least seven good friends.
[] You’ve had food poisoning.
[] You have/had short hair.
[X] You get along with almost everyone.
[X] All of your friends are different.
[X] You love to have a good time.
[] You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in.
Total: 4

Tinkerbell
[] You get jealous easily.
[X] You loved your childhood.
[] You like to fly.
[X] You believe in magic.
[] You’re 5’2” or under.
[] You hate pirates.
[] You love sparkles.
[] People underestimate you.|
[] You get angry easily.
[] You have/had a treehouse.
Total: 2

Pocahontas
[X] You love to walk around and explore big cities.
[] You are more spiritual than religious.
[X] You’ve been in an interracial relationship.
[X] One of your family members is dead.
[X] Your parents are very protective of you.
[] Someone you know has been in the war.
[] You love nature.
[] You have/had black hair.
[X] You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful.
[] You’re very adventurous.
Total: 5

Mulan
[] You can be a tomboy sometimes.
[] People wish you could be a bit more girly.
[] You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not.
[] You’ve had a physical fight with someone.
[] You have/had considered running away from home.
[] Your parents try to plan your life out.
[X] A lot of your friends are boys.
[] You sometimes find yourself in bad situations.
[X] You love your family so much that you’d do anything to protect them
Total: 2

Eve

2011-12-24T20:13:00.001-08:00

Raven

2011-12-20T22:32:00.000-08:00

I just seen this trailer. I had no idea a movie was even being made about Edgar Allan Poe's stories. I am so excited. I love his stories and I love his poems.

The Poem I love most is Annabel Lee. Such a beautiful poem, a sad poem, a love poem.
A love that was so strong that even the Angels were jealous, a love so strong that it extends beyond death. I wish to find a love like that one day. .

Annabel Lee

It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of ANNABEL LEE;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.

I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea;
But we loved with a love that was more than love-
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.

And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.

The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me-
Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.

But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we-
Of many far wiser than we-
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea.

Timeline

2011-12-19T22:21:00.000-08:00

Some old statuses that have caught my eye. Some funny and some sad. I remember all of them. I remember 2009 and how that was the worst year. Amazing how OK I am with it. How I am no longer hurt. I have a good and happy life now.

LOL my very first status update.

I joined June 21, 2007

LMAO still love this.

My old high school classmate Jody.

Bob and Simko

I remember this. This was the only time I was really scared to be living in Edmonton. I went home to Turtle Lake for a week and I almost moved back home too. But I didn't want to give up just yet. I came back to Edmonton and my best friend Spencer was about to come stay with me while I looked for a new place to live. but Deanna came with me instead.

I remember being scared and upset. When I was in Turtle lake I slept most of time. Spencer brought me back. lol. I was lying in my grandma's room and she brought me the phone and all of a sudden Spencer is on the other line. I talked to him and he made me laugh. He asked me if hearing his voice made me happy, I said "No it just brings back all violated feelings" and we both just laughed.

LOL I was working at Wal-Mart and this was my first Inventory.

I worked at Wal-Mart for 2 years and then went back to school in 2009 :)

hmmm. yup. worried worried worried and Shawna was the one that was 100% there for me. I lost something that night and will never get it back.

January 2009 was when everything just collapsed on me.

I stayed strong for as long as I could but I was so lost. So confused.

February 2009, I remember you. I remember you.

A week after this I lost everything.

My heart broke and I was just in pain.

April 2009. I made the most random decision. My sister came to visit and it was 2 months later and I was still heart broken. The morning after this status I just decided to move back home to Turtle Lake. At the end of the month I was home with my family. I stayed in Saskatchewan for 5 months and then came back to Edmonton for school.

My friend at the time always harassed my ex. I am happy I am no longer friends with that person.

lol. that is a bit dramatic. I moved that day.

Erik I am sorry... I am starting to remember again. You were a mistake, my best mistake :)

From now on I will try to smile when you cross my mind, instead of hate you.

Fricken Tyrone. My coolest brother-in-law.

No one will ever really know what this status means.

OMG.Truest Happiest Moment in my life.

Seriously... I was in tears because I was so happy. I got my acceptance letter to go back to School.

Ahhh look at me... a lighter side of me.

Truthfully, I was still pretty down at this time. But Alex and Katie saved me.

I remember this night. So funny. I was in Onion Lake and I was talking to my kokom on the phone. I told her I am never going to marry a native man, never... and she told me this.

2 years later I still feel this way.

KMAO I just love the last comment.

Katie and I talk to each other very inappropriately.

Netch. I must have still been friends with Chris at this time. Ah ok I know why.

Chris told me Erik moved away and I was happy. I have been living back in Edmonton for 2 months at the time and my biggest fear was to run into Erik. Not because I was scared of him, I was scared my sad feelings would come back.

I remember this. It was at JP terminal and I was on my way to school.

The only thing I love about myself is my hazel eyes.

This is more recent and it is Alex's status. Made me laugh though.

Bitches love puppies. lmao.

Dec 2007

2011-12-18T23:55:00.000-08:00

LOL I just started using timeline on FB. I went all the way back to 2007, to when I first started using FB. I seen Mike's post and finally commented today. I laughed so hard. Mike is the best for replying.

Confidence is Sexy

2011-12-16T21:13:00.000-08:00

It is insane how physically attracted I am to Miyavi.

When I see Miyavi I am like "SCHWING"

lol

OMG he is just a beast. Yum ;)

My attraction to Miyavi is just a physical attraction.

He is sexy and confident.
A man that can carry himself and not care what the world thinks.
His tattoo's
His Style

Reality... this is the kind of man I would fall for in my teen years. I am not a teenager no more. Really I would like to meet a man that still has confidence in himself but also a more stability to him and mature nature. I kinda wish I was still a teenager, lol.

On The Fence

2011-12-15T21:57:00.000-08:00

Well I got myself in a pickle. lol. A situation.

OK. ---> I am thinking about trying ... trying...

Well here is the sich. I have never been drunk or "buzzed." I never tried it because I grew up seeing it and I never wanted it for myself. It is not fun being around people who get drunk.

I have taken sips of alcohol on Four different occasions.

I tried it for the first time with my cousins Sherry&Deanna. I only took a sip on a dare. I felt nothing.
I tried it a second time on my High School graduation. 2006. It was at the Grad party and my friends were all getting drunk. They kept telling me to just take a drink. All night they were saying this to me. Finally I just took Cy's cup and pretended to drink it. I took a sip to show them and then I dumped it when no one was looking. I felt nothing.
I tried it a 3rd time in Winter 2008/2009. My boyfriend at the time made me drink even though he knew I did not like it. Even though he knew I was not suppose too. Again I took a small drink and did not feel anything.
I tried it a 4th time June 2009. Katie and Alex had just left for their grad trip and I was missing them. Allison called me and told me we would go driving on the North Roads late at night for a birthday celebration for me. 9:00pm we managed to leave. It was Allison, Tyrone, Jesse, Chester, Ashton, and Me. We found a isolated location and made a fire. Ally gave me a cooler and told me to drink it. Since this was for my birthday I thought I should just try it. It was a can and I maybe took 2-3 sips before I threw it away. It was gross. Again I felt nothing. Just sleepy. We ended up driving all night and getting home 7am.

So I can't say that I never drank before. I did. BUT I HAVE NEVER BEEN DRUNK OR FELT THIS SO CALLED "BUZZED" FEELING. LOL. A person can't really get drunk off of tiny sips. Combine all 4 of those times and I bet I still never even drank a cup.

I have asked people to try and describe what it is like.

I asked my Kokom and she tells me she has no idea. She could not explain it.
I asked my brother Douglas and he told me its fun.
I asked my brother-in-law Tyrone and he told me it is a happy feeling.
I asked my friend Yuna and she told me she blacks out and does not remember what it is like. OMG that seriously sounds so scary.
I asked my brothers girlfriend Erika and she told me she has never been drunk then me and her high fived. lol.
I asked my friend Yan and he too told me he has never been drunk. I admire that he can make himself stop before it happens :)

Hmmmm.

Experiencing being drunk is something I plan to try out ONCE in my life. I just do not know if I should do it this week.

Hmmmm... I want to try it with someone I trust and someone I know would look after me. Josie I do trust but I want Katie to be there as well. I need my Kinz.

Hmmmm... I just I will just have to wait and see how I feel in the moment.

I wish someone would really really tell me what to expect. I wish someone would give me their honest answer if I should do this at all. Even if I do not try it this month... Should I try later in the future??

What?

I should google what it is like...

LOL... I googled it and this is what I got: "Buzz" is relaxed. "Drunk" is a bad roller coaster. buzz is when u barely feel light headed and the world moves funny...drunk is when u loose control...u know what you're doing when drunk but for some reason; it's like another wild-you- is doing things you normally don't do. and then after that stage- you think you passed out; but the part of really drunk comes in; where you really lost it...

LOL. Oh My.
I honestly thought Buzzed and Drunk were the same thing. lol. OMG. Now I am scared.
My Bucket List I have "Experience what it is like to be drunk"....

My Dad

2011-12-14T23:27:00.001-08:00

I have the worlds greatest dad.
All girls prolly think that and I respect it, my dad is the greatest in my eyes. :)
People probably think I only say this because my dad buys me things. Yes it is awesome to get cool things from my dad but my dad is much more than that.
-My dad is the only parent that has never hit me.
-He phones me 2-3 times a week just to make sure I am ok.
-He visits at least 1-2 times in a month and brings my brother and sisters.
-When me and my mom are fighting he tells me he will always be there for me and not to worry.
-When I was attacked he drove straight to Edmonton and cried when he hugged me. Threaten the man who hurt me.
-When I was a kid he was always a phone call away. I could call him anytime when I wanted to go visit.
-I remember pretending to sleep and listening to my dad yell at my older cousin (who came home drunk), I heard my dad say, "You can't be here like this, I took her away from that life."
-I remember my dad crying when I chose to move back to TC.
-My dad still calls me his baby, his first brat :)
-My dad is scared of scary movies. I remember him waking me up early on a weekend just so I would watch The Exorcist with him.
-My dad spoils all his children. Buys us so many things.
-I respect my dad a lot and I never lie to him. I always tell him the truth about anything.
-My dads so funny, he makes the most random comments about my Starr side of the family to tease me. The things he says are so silly and never mean.

My dad loves me. My dad loves all of his kids and his step-kids. We have the greatest dad. We are lucky.
I was talking to my Mosom (grandpa) and he told me I am very blessed to have my dad. I agree. I am very blessed.

Lol Funny story behind that text message. My sister Alex came to pick up Jolynne on Sunday. I was fooling around with her and snatched my dads bank card out of her wallet (as a joke). I forgot to give it back to her when she went home. I had to call my dad and tell him what I did. Lol. He was a little mad. Not really mad, but mad still that I did something childish. We talked on the phone and his disappointment in me went away. Lol. I sent the bank card by bus back to Lloyd. I put it in a tiny box with a tiny note that said "I love you dad" ... Just to make him smile.

I do love my dad. He can get mad like all dads do, but he is the best.

Zzzzzz

2011-12-14T00:15:00.001-08:00

Can't Sleep
Some PS that I love :)

LMFAO

2011-12-11T20:01:00.001-08:00

I had a good weekend with my little sister Jolynne. I had a happy couple hour visit with my Sister Alex when she came to pick up Jolynne.
Love my sisters :)

Nicknames

2011-12-09T10:22:00.001-08:00

LOL I was talking with a friend last night about nicknames. I felt so embarrassed when I told him mine were Princess and Doggy Eyes. I laughed when he mentioned the names were not normal in his country.
Oh my ~~Blush~~

I guess nicknames work differently in Canada than they do in South Korea.

Wiki definition of a nickname is: A nickname is "a usually familiar or humorous but sometimes pointed or cruel name given to a person or place, as a supposedly appropriate replacement for or addition to the proper name." or a name similar in origin and pronunciation from the original name.

My Nicknames

Princess: My grandpa gave me this nickname when I was young. Always told me I was his princess. I use to be embarrassed to be called by it but now I don't mind. It annoys me when my mom calls me it on my fb wall.
Doggy Eyes: LMAO Oh I really did not like this nickname as a kid. lol. Now it makes me laugh. Me and my late brother Justin were the only ones in the Dillon family that were born with Hazel Eyes. My Eyes have a Green color to them at times and I would always get compliments on the color of my eyes. When I was a kid I would run around saying "I have cat eyes, I have cat eyes!" because I knew they were green. My older cousins started calling me Doggy Eyes to get me mad.
Kitty Cat Eyes: When my cousins called me Doggy Eyes I would cry or get mad. To make me feel better they would call me "Kitty Cat Eyes" lmao... Now they call me both names... its a toss up.
Turtle Lake Monster: lol my Dillon family make the meanest nicknames for me. I am from Turtle Lake and my dads side of the family is from Onion Lake. There is a legend or story that Turtle Lake has a monster in it, but really its a huge fish. So my Dillon family started saying I was the Turtle Lake Monster. lol. They even had it put on my birthday cake a couple times.

Wiki: The Turtle Lake Monster is an alleged cryptid inhabiting Turtle Lake, in West Central Saskatchewan Canada. The creature is said to be long and have a "sea horse" like head. About once a year someone claims to have had an encounter the beast.[1] Reports date back to pre-settlement days when the local Cree had a legend about people who ventured into the monster's territory vanishing without a trace.[1] Some have speculated that the Monster sightings may be attributed to sightings of an unusually large lake sturgeon, or a relict population of prehistoric plesiosaurs.

WALES

2011-12-08T13:42:00.000-08:00

Let's Talk about Wales... my Josie Posey

She is my cousin and also one of my greatest friends. No one can make me laugh the way she does. Seriously the funniest girl ever.
She use to my my number one cousin and I still love her just the same but we do not talk as much as we use too. We grew apart a little bit.
Just like Katie I do tell her everything.
We use to live together, I use to keep her. When I was 16 I had my own place and when I turned 17 I let Josie come live with me. She was only 12 years old. Teachers at our school knew of our living arrangement and I am so happy they never called social services on us. They were actually impressed.
I've been to 2 metal concerts and 2 rock concerts with her. When she was 12 and I was still 17 I took her to the MTV Headbangers Ball. The youngest girl there with an ice cream lol.
Some of her nicknames are Wales, JFuzz, Melmon...
She is known for always having lip gloss on her.

Basic Info About Your other :) Best Friend!

Your name: Nicole Starr

Friend's Name? Josie Starr

Your age? 24

Best friends Age? 19

How long have you known each other? All our lives.

Is this the only best friend you have? She is my 2nd best. Number one is Katie Kinz.

History!

When did you meet? 1992. I was 5 when she was born... Prolly Turtle Lake when she was brought home. We were neighbors all our lives.

How old were you both? I was 5 and she was a baby

Where did you meet? Turtle Lake

Why do you feel you became best friends? I started being nice to her when she was around 10. She was a little jerk to all the cousins but she always listened to me.

True/False

You were instantly friends: No way. She was a little terror as a kid. Seriously no one ever wanted to play with her and she loved to get us in trouble.

Your best friend knows every single one of your secrets: She knows 97% I tell her everything I tell Katie, eventually. Not right away because I can never get a hold of her, even through fb.

You think you know all their secrets: No. She really does not talk to me no more. I still love her. We are just growing apart a little bit.

You believe that this person is the most loyal friend you have: I do, with all my heart.

You believe this friendship will last until the end of time: Of course it will.

This person is the most supportive person you know: Yes she is. When I need her she will 100% there for me. I just don't have drama in live life anymore and I don't need her?? lol. I don't want to bother her with my small problems too.

This person is the one you call when you have a problem: I can't call her. This girl has no phone.

You have not slept with person: What?

This person is/was/will be your best man/maid of honor: She will not be. If I can have 2 (like Ross) then yes. That day is no where near.

There is nothing you do not know about this person: I know her pretty well. Just not anything new.

Well, let's test your knowledge! (these are all questions about your best friend)

Eye Color: Brown

Hair color: Dark Brown

Hair style: Long

Height: She is taller than me... ummm 5'7"??????

Weight: A lady never reveals

Shoe size: Big I think 9 or 10

Number of piercings: Just earsl (I think?)

Number of tattoos: 2

Who does he/she live with: Her boyfriend Waylo

What kind of car does your best friend drive: She drives a truck I think. Or last I heard she does.

AIM/MSN/ICQ Name/Number: Josie Starr 26

Parent's Name(s): Loretta Starr and Kyle Jimmy

Siblings names: Swade, Cordell, Ivana, Lizzard (Liz)

Pet's names: Duke ?

Bedroom colors: I've been to her place once. I think everything was white.

First school attended: Thunderchild just like me.

Religion!

What is your best friend's religion? She dances sundances a lot and to do that she has to believe in the Creator. I also know she believes in God too.

Do you practice it also? My values are more Christian

Do you agree with it? I respect it

Do you argue about it? No

Relationships!!!

Has this person met your significant other? I am not with anyone right now and I only ever had one boyfriend and she never met him.

Have you met your best friend's significant other? I have met Waylon tons of times. Funny guy.

Are you their "crying shoulder" when something goes wrong? No.

Totally Random stuff no one asks about your friend!

Weirdest gift you have received from your friend? This tiny figurine of 2 men, I still have it.

Weirdest gift you bought for your friend? I have bought her lots of things. I don't know if they were weird.

When was your first sleepover? there were millions of them

Have you been intoxicated or otherwise under the influence together? I don't drink and she does... but I never seen her drunk.

Does your friend smoke? I don't know??

Does your friend drink? She does and I do not approve.

Has your best friend seen you naked? No but I seen her lol

Have you ever been to the doctor together? Why? No?? maybe...

Why/Why not? ^^^ up there

What thing does your best friend most often say? Nacho cheese. lol.

What thing does your best friend do that irritates you most? Make me laugh when I want to be angry. omg. She makes me laugh all the time and it hurts my stomach.

In 2007 Josie would constantly watch this video on youtube when she visited me.
I love the song but her trying to sing to it drove me crazy

lol had to add this

Survey Pt 2

2011-12-07T16:51:00.000-08:00

Who Are You?

Name: Nicole Starr
Zodiac Sign: Gemini
Rising Sign:   21°39' Cancer
Birth Year: 1987
Birthplace: Saskatoon
Hometown: Turtle Lake
Is your Hometown a small town, rural town, suburb, city, or inner-city: very small town
Highschool(s): Turtleford school
Are you the eldest, middle, youngest or only child?: 2nd Oldest
Heritage: Cree

What Do You Look Like?
Hair Color: Brown
Eye Color: Hazel
Skin tone: light

What Makes You Tick
What aspect of your personality do you like best? I am always positive
Which aspect of your personality do you like the least? I am scared most times too
What are some things about other people that annoy you? Conceited people, racist people, and people that say mean things about same sex couples
What are some things about you that might annoy people? I am quiet
When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up? An author
What is your favorite time of day? night
Are your parents still together, never were together or divorced:   they broke up when I was still a baby. I never knew them together.
How do you handle arguments/disagreements with other people? Its always different with other people. With a person I am just getting to know or do not know well I will let them win. With friends I am close with I will look hard into what they are saying and try and work it out. With my mom I stop calling her until she apologizes. With my dad, we never fight so its always good there.
Would say you are more extroverted or introverted? Very Introverted... I am quiet and reserved
Name something you’d like to do before you die: Fall in love <3
If you could back in time to any point of history, where would you go and why? The time of Jane Austen, everyone was so classy then.
Have you ever experienced anything supernatural? I seen a psychic and most things she said did happen so I stopped going 5 years ago.
Are you close to your family members? I am close with all of them
Name some things in life that you are afraid of? Men, loosing my grandparents, zombies.
What is your biggest life issue right now? Getting a full time position at work

What Do You Like?
Colors: Pink, Red, White, Black, Blue
Scents: Vanilla, Lavender,
TV Channels: I do not watch station tv
Cars: I can't see the difference from one car to the next
PC Games: I do not play pc games
Snack Foods: popcorn
Beverages: water and ice tea
Game Consoles: ps3
Concerts: any kind, I've tried them all from Heavy Metal, Rock, Pop, & Country
Conversation Topics: Guys :)
Newspapers: Edmonton Sun
Magazines: Cosmo
Flowers: Orchid
Radio Stations: I don't listen to the radio
Jewelry: bracelets
Restaurants: I like going to BP
Clubs: Never been to one
Websites: Facebook
CDs:   I never use CD's anymore
Vacation spots: Vegas. Only been there once but I am going back
Stores: HMV
Outdoor Activities: Walking

Answer As U Like...
If you could live in any other place, where & why? The Mountains, it is beautiful there
What animal best represents you & why? Penguin, I do not want to go from man to man, I just want to find the one :)
What is the craziest thing you ever did? On our vacation this past September I kept making crazy predictions and they all came true. Chris said I manifest things.
If you could meet anyone, who would it be & why? All 5 backstreet boys lol. Tell them I loved them since I was 9 years old.
If you could have any superpower what would it be? Travel through space and time like Hiro
Whos is your ultimate celebrity crush? Right now... the guy who plays Chuck Bass on Gossip Girl or Chuck Bass the character. That man is super sexy
What color best represents you? White.. plain, innocent,
What would your life's theme song be? Monster Side by Addict
Who would you cast to play you in a movie? Natalie Portman, just because I love her
What is the greatest movie of all time? Lord of the Rings
If you could star in any t.v. show, which one would it be? Gossip Girl just to see Chuck Bass
If you could bring back 1 famous person from the dead for a day, who & why? Heath Ledger just to see what he was like.
If you got one tattoo, what would it be? Heartagram
If you were on MTV's Made, what would you ask to be? I do not know what that is.
Who do you think is the hottest athlete? David Beckham
Who do you think is the hottest actor/actress? Rain and Keira Knightly
Who do you think is the hottest musician/singer/rapper? JRock singer Miyavi. OMG I am so attracted to him. I don't even like guys like that anymore, but he is so sexy. I think its his devil may care attitude, confidence is sexy.
Who do you think is the hottest t.v. reality star? Reality??? ummmm..... Evan or Kenny from Real World Challenge
What is your most missed memory of childhood? Playing in the forest with no fear. Now I am scared of bears.

What do you prefer when you get into a relationship?
Would you rather have a fun fling or a lasting relationship? Lasting.
What was your longest relationship? Not long
What is the most romantic thing a significant other could do? Could do... hmmm... I don't know
When you are dating someone, what is the most important thing to you? Trust
Do you like pet names (ex: baby, sweetheart...)? I don't know... maybe :)
What is your ideal night out with a significant other? Going for a late night walk somewhere nice
What is your ideal night in with a significant other? snuggled on the couch watching a good movie
Would you be able to tell someone you love them, even if you didn't feel it? I will not say it unless I mean it. Which is why I have never said it yet.
Do you like relationships that invovle serious commitments? Yes
If you ever got engaged, how would you want it to happen? I don't know... let that be taken care of by the man.
If you were engaged, would you want a wedding as soon as possible? I don't know, never thought about it
Do you like to talk about the future when in a serious relationship? Never been in a serious relationship.
Do you prefer a sensitive open relationship or a strong silent type? Sensitive and open.
When in a relationship do you have to have contact with your partner on a daily basis? Yes
Do you like public displays of affection? Keep it simple such as hand holding... not that groping R rated stuff
Is there anything you won't tolerate while in a relationship? Physical abuse
What is one thing that you value most in a relationship? loyalty and trust
Would you ever be able to handle a long-distance situation? I don't know. I would try.
Do you believe in moving in together before engagement or marriage? Sure

The Last Bit
What is your greatest accomplishment? Graduating from Grant MacEwan
Is the weather to your liking today? it is -8... not bad.
What do you tend to dream negatively about, the most? Zombies, I always have zombie nightmares.
If you're having a bad hair day, do you wear a cap of some sort? No, I just won't leave the house unless its decent
How often are you angry for no reason? Angry?? I am never angry. Last time I was angry was October and it was with my mom. I love my mom but she really is the only person that makes me angry. She likes to hurt my feelings but I don't think she realizes that she does it. She even tells me I am angry all the time and I never am, only when I am with her.
Does being in deep water make you nervous? No its fun. I lived all my summers as a child swimming in Turtle Lake. I haven't gone swimming in 3 years though.
Is there anyone currently in your life that's hurting you or pissing you off? No. :)
What's the most serious crime you've ever committed? I never done such a thing.
Do you use a letter opener when you open your mail? use my hands.
How close are you, emotionally, to the last person you left a comment for? Last person is prolly Kinz and that girl is my other half
Do you leave your PC on 24/7? no
What do your parents think of your lifestyle choices? They better be proud of me. lol. I think they are happy. I am the only one that chooses to not drink, not party, not do drugs, and I finished school.
Would you trade houses with your neighbor(s), if you could? lmao I live in a townhouse. All my neighbors have the exact same house.
Are there any stains on a favorite item of clothing that you just can't get out? I recently got a pen mark on my shirt. Pretty mad about that.
If you smoke weed, how do you smoke it (bong, joint, bowl): I do not smoke it. Never will.
What's your thoughts on people who have children with more than one father? It happens.
How many second-hand items are in the room with you right now? the coffee table and book shelf. and my lamp.
Do you smoke cigarettes? If so, is there anyone you WON'T smoke around? I do not smoke and I do not like the smell of cigarette smoke.
What's the last thing you plugged in to charge? My iPhone last night
Do your grandparents have a cell phone/computer? They has a cell but they are having hard time paying it off.
What's your favorite daily activity? My Blog
Who or what, is something you complain about constantly? People who smoke in front of me
Do you still have the same e-mail address as you did when you first started using e-mail? Yes, my mom made it for me when I was 12. nicolesstarr@hotmail... real long lol
How do you know the last person you added to your friends' list? Last person who added me was Jonghwan... I do not know him personally. We just text.
Have you ever had to go to the hospital because of a panic attack? No but my brother and mom have.
Do you think mullets are stupid looking? yes I do
How old were you when you discovered the truth about babies? I have no idea. I use to think they came out of the bellybutton. I can't remember when I learned the truth.
How far from your hometown do you now live? 390km away from Turtle Lake. 5 Hour drive. Everyone I know, all my family is over that way and I am alone in this city.
Ever seen a live whale? No, its on my list of what to do/see before I die.

K.M.A.O

2011-12-06T10:02:00.001-08:00

Let's Talk about Kinz. My Katie Kinz.

She is my cousin but also my best friend. I do not trust anyone the way I trust her.
On Facebook we are listed as being in a Domestic Partnership. lol. It is not true. It is just a joke and she will not let me end it. Its funny but I do worry what people I newly meet and people from work think. OMG I wonder what people from work think??
KMAO is our inside joke and no one knows what it means.
With her I am 100% myself =D
I tell her everything. Every small detail in my life I tell her.
On weekends I post "Ahhh" on my facebook and Katie is the only person that knows what it means.
I have been to 2 rock concerts and 1 heavy metal concert with her. We have never spend them together. We always get separated by the people in the crowd.
Her nicknames are Chocolate, Kinz, Shaniqua, Big K, Pudding. I call her by her nicknames more than her real name. I mostly use Kinz or Chocolate.

Basic Info About Your Best Friend!
Your name: Nicole Starr
Best friend's Name? Kaitlyn MacDonald
Your age? 24
Best friends Age? 22, I am so jealous she is younger
How long have you known each other? All our lives.
Is this the only best friend you have? She is the number one. My second is Josie Starr
History!
When did you meet? No idea. Would have to ask our mothers, I doubt they will remember.
How old were you both? I was 2 she was 0
Where did you meet? I do not know!!!!!!!!!!
Why do you feel you became best friends? I fricken love her... too much fun times together
True/False
You were instantly friends: of course not, I had no idea what that was at that age
Your best friend knows every single one of your secrets: She knows 98% of them. Some stuff I keep to myself.
You think you know all their secrets: I know I prolly don't. She talks when she wants to but she is not as open with me as I am with her. I will always let her vent her issues with me though.
You believe that this person is the most loyal friend you have: I do, with all my heart.
You believe this friendship will last until the end of time: Of course it will.
This person is the most supportive person you know: She always is and thats why I love her so much. She picks me up when I feel down. I always feel like the ugliest person and she tells me I am beautiful. I worry so much and she convinces me to stop.
This person is the one you call when you have a problem: I don't call her. I email her. lol. or Text her. I am not a phone person.
You have not slept with person: What?
This person is/was/will be your best man/maid of honor: She will be. I know my sister Allison wants it but I need it to be Katie. No one knows me like she does. LOL its not like that day coming anytime soon. But if it ever does, it will be Katie.
There is nothing you do not know about this person: I know her pretty well. But I feel like she knows me more.
Well, let's test your knowledge! (these are all questions about your best friend)
Eye Color: Brown
Hair color: Dark Brown
Hair style: Long
Height: OMG I don't know... she is taller than me. 5'7" ??
Weight: A lady never reveals
Shoe size: These are stalker questions. I will guess and say 8
Number of piercings: I know she had her lip and tongue.. her damn hair is always covering her ears idk. 4?
Number of tattoos: None.
Who does he/she live with: Her mom
What kind of car does your best friend drive: I have no idea. I haven't been down that way in forever. I know she sold her red one... I will guess and say My aunts Carols car
AIM/MSN/ICQ Name/Number: Kay Tay
Parent's Name(s): Carol MacDonald/Watt and Raymond MacDonald
Siblings names: Kyle and Wendell
Pet's names: Lady GaGa
Bedroom colors: I have no been to her place. I will guess and say white
First boyfriend/girlfriend: Oh I suck because I forgot. A boy from John D'or Prairie or that area when she lived there. See she is not open with me, she only told me about this once and never again...
First school attended: Really?? I need to know this... She lived in Wetaskiwin when she was young but also in Onion Lake when she was young. Where the heck did she go first??????? This chick moves around too much.
Religion!
What is your best friend's religion? She is big on native pride and I never hear her talk about God. I will say the Creator
Do you practice it also? My values are more Christian
Do you agree with it? I respect it
Do you argue about it? No
Relationships!!!
Has this person met your significant other? I am not with anyone right now and I only ever had one boyfriend and she never met him.
Have you met your best friend's significant other? No I have not, I dread the day because she will not love me no more.
Are you their "crying shoulder" when something goes wrong? No, that can't happen since I live 4 hours away from her. But she vents to me when she wants to :) via email/text
Totally Random stuff no one asks about your friend!
Weirdest gift you have received from your friend? Popcorn :)
Weirdest gift you bought for your friend? a HIM ticket she did not use
When was your first sleepover? there were millions of them
Have you been intoxicated or otherwise under the influence together? No! I have never been drunk and I am almost certain I have never seen her drunk.
Does your friend smoke? If so, what? She does and its bad
Does your friend drink? She does and I do not approve.
Has your best friend seen you naked? lol hell No
Have you ever been to the doctor together? Why? No. We are 4 hours apart.
Do you think you could live together? I want to try it but I am also scared we will drive each other crazy. I still want to try it.
Why/Why not? ^^^ up there
What thing does your best friend most often say? KMAO, a bad word, another bad word.
What thing does your best friend do that irritates you most? hmmmmm.... when am I annoyed with her... hmmmmmmmmmm I prolly have one... I just need to chill with her to find out what it is again.

Secrets

2011-12-05T13:44:00.001-08:00

Secrets that I love <3

** Note: They are not my secrets

Someday :)

2011-12-04T20:33:00.001-08:00

Happy

2011-12-03T20:15:00.001-08:00

So strange things seem to get and everyday I feel so blessed. I thank God always for the life he has given me.
I find myself smiling a lot. It's annoying. I just wake up happy and I go to bed with butterflies.

Fort

2011-12-02T15:44:00.001-08:00

A photo I found. I love this pic. Such an awesome idea to try, an adult fort.

A Lot Like ----

2011-12-01T20:49:00.001-08:00

Seriously I keep giggling and I keep smiling. I need to stop.
I an going to have a nice sleep tonight :)

Day 10

2011-12-01T18:46:00.001-08:00

One Confession
I get scared when a guy texts me. I just plain get scared when a guy talks to me. I don't know why. lol. A real guy, not a long time friend or family member.

Day Nine

2011-11-30T21:00:00.000-08:00

Two Smileys that Describe you right now

I am like this all the time

But also too shy about it

Survey Pt 1

2011-11-30T20:29:00.001-08:00

Where are you right now?

In my living room at home

Are you bored?

Yes, that is why I chose to do this

What day is today?

Wednesday November 30th 2011

Are you happy?

I actually had a bad day but I am very happy with my life

Do you have a lot of friends?

Back home I do, here in the city... somewhat, yeah i do

Are you close with them?

Thats the thing, I am not close with them.

Who do you tell everything to?

Katie MacDonald, Josie Starr, Allison Dillon

Is that person your best friend?

Katie Mac Is.. she is my Kinny Kinz

Does your best friend call you their best friend?

I don't think so... oh well, she is my best lol

Does your best friend have other best friends?

She Does :)

Do you ever fight with your best friend?

No?

Does your best friend know everything about you?

I believe she does. Yes she does. She knows me and can even predict me.

Do you know everything about your best friend?

I do. But she is not as open as I am with her.

Are your friends jealous of your best friend?

Sometimes. She is more brave than I am

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

I do not have a boyfriend right now

Do you want kids?

I don't think I do. If I change my mind I would adopt.

Do you miss being a kid?

Yes. I was much braver as a kid.

Who was the last person to call you?

Staffing.

Who was the last person to text you?

My friend Yan

Who was the last person to comment on your facebook page?

Kyle Mac I think

Have you ever cheated?

Like on a person. No. Never have and Never will. I really do not like people that cheat.

Have you ever been cheated on?

I don't know. I guess lol.

Would you ever cheat?

No.

Do you have any tattoos?

Do you have any piercings?

Do you have any regrets?

Ummm, none come to mind.

What are you wearing?

PJ's

Do you have plans for the weekend?

I work on weekends

will you be with your friends this weekend?

only if Kim is working this weekend

When was the last time you were drunk

Never been drunk in my life. I honestly want to try it now :)

Do you ever lie?

Yes I do. I try not too.

Do you enjoy sex?

lol, who doesn't?

How often do you have sex?

LMAO. I refuse to say

What was the last movie you watched?

The Debt

Who was the last person to email you?

Kinz I think

Is that person a close friend?

the best

Would that person do anything to hurt you?

she once ran me over on a water slide. lmao

Who was the last person you talked to?

my mother dear

What did you say

we talked about all the drama going on back home and she told me not to worry about it. she also told me she would give me spending money for my Vegas trip in April.

Do you wish you were somewhere else?

Yes I do. I wish I could travel to all the places I really want to see. Seoul South Korea is on top of my list.

Are you a nice person?

Very nice. I let people walk over me.

Do people like you?

I hope they do.

Do you have friends from out of state?

I have a few friends. some from states and some from South Korea.

Where do they live?

in the States, South Korea, and friends back in Sask

Do you have friends from out of the country?

omg I just said so ^^ up there.

Have you ever been out of the country? and if yes where?

Once I went to the states this past September. Went to Sedona, Vegas, Salt Lake City, Grand Canyon... and so on. Going back to Vegas in April :)

Where would you like to go?

Seoul South Korea, Tokyo Japan, Helsinki Finland, Auckland New Zealand.

What song are you listening to?

Post Blue by placebo

What's your favorite thing to eat

Popcorn, Bananas, Kimchi, Ice cream... omg I love Ice Cream.

Whats the thing that you hate the most to eat?

Most sea food. lol. Most people like it and get annoyed with me for not but I can't help it. I like some, just not all.

Do you have a crush on someone?

Yes I do

Do you talk to him/her everyday?

No. I only see him on weekends.

Do you talk about them to your friends?

Only to Kinz

Does your crush like you?

lol he doesnt even know me

How long have you liked your crush?

Since last years snow... so about a year

Is your crush handsome/beautiful?

very handsome

Do you like hearing their voice?

lol I rarely hear it. sure.

When you see them, are you shy?

Always shy. ugh.

If you could tell them how you felt about him/her, would you?

NO. I am not pretty and not confident.

Do you have pictures of your crush?

lol

Do you like to be kinky?

Omg. seriously??

Whats the first sexual thing that you will do with do with your gf/bf ?

LOL, NO way Im saying

Are you a virgin?

Have you ever masterbated?

lmao

Do you keep secrets from the ones you love?

What food is sexual to you?

lmao

Do you mind me asking these questions?

lmao... im laughing

Have you ever done drugs?

never.

What kind of underwear are you wearing?

lmao

Would you leaver your bf/gf for me if i asked you to?

lmao, omg who wrote this.

Would you ever cheat on your bf/gf?

never.

Have you ever pleased a bf/gf befor sexually ?

lmao

Would you kiss your bf/gf the first chance you could?

sure

When someone touches your knee dose it tickle?

Yes

Do you blush if a guy talks to you?

All the damn time. Just all guys it is automatic blush. lmao. Any person of the opposite sex talks to me and I will blush, Gay or Straight, Handsome or Average, A Crush or a Stranger... I will blush. I hate it. I can't stop it.
A few guys in high school knew this about me and omg they took advantage of it. It was cruel because I am so shy around guys. It was even mentioned in a graduation speech.
I only had male friends and there was 4 of them. I never blushed with them cause they were my brothers, I saw them as family. Spencer was flirty but he was too much my best friend to ever make me blush.

When a guy looks at you, do you get over excited?

lmao. what?

How many guys do you like?

let me see.... Ahhh guy... a kakao friends... a guy from work... 3?

How many Boyfriend have you had?

one

When your on a date, do you eat really fast?

Are you the flirty type?

not even... or at least i dont think i am

Do you love chocolate?

I love her to death

--What you want in a guy--

Long Hair or Short Hair?

Both... I like both

Skater or preppy?

doesnt matter

Quiet or loud?

quiet i guess.

Sweet or funny?

both... sweet more

Cute or nice?

nice

Partier or just the two of you?

just the 2

Emotional or not?

not too much

Cuddly or not?

yes

Clingy or independent?

somewhere in betweeen

Mama's boy or daddy's boy?

omg neither

Virgin or experianced?

lol

Cheater or player?

omg none

Nice smile or nice butt?

smile

Pretty eyes or pretty face?

eyes

French kisser or quick kisser?

lmao, seriously laughing... french

Hugs or kisses?

both and lots of it

Grab you or leave you alone?

grab

Fun or passionate?

passionate

Random

2011-11-29T22:36:00.001-08:00

Lmao just looking over old texts and this one makes me laugh. I'm gonna make someone an awesome girlfriend.
I think I sent this last April 2011. Katie and her mom were in Edmonton and I was trying to get a hold of her so I could go see her. The guy who's name I crossed out was just a short work crush. One of the student doctors. lol.

Day 8

2011-11-29T18:39:00.000-08:00

Three Turn Ons
1. Eyes
2. Mouth
3. Hands

Sweet

2011-11-28T23:33:00.001-08:00

His concern made me smile today. I was going for a walk to get groceries and mentioned I hope I will be ok because it was dark.
So far he is one of my favorite new friends I have made. Just a friend. A nice friend.
We started chatting November 17th.
He texts almost everyday. Sometimes I do not know what to say... I don't know what to talk about. So we have these long moments of silence. lol.

Day Seven

2011-11-28T22:47:00.000-08:00

Four Turn Offs
1. Bad Breath
2. Rudeness to strangers and those different.
3. A guy that does not bathe lol
4. A guy who is controlling and insecure.

Day 6

2011-11-27T10:36:00.000-08:00

5 People who mean a lot (no order)
1. Doug Starr my Mosom
2. Eliza Starr my Kokom
3. Jackie Starr my mom
4. Brednor Dillon my dad
5. Hannah Rain Dillon my baby sister

Day Five

2011-11-26T18:15:00.000-08:00

Six thing I wish I never done
1. Got one wisdom tooth pulled out. I should have gotten them all done. I fear to ever go through that again.
2. Skipped out on the last Cradle of Filth concert back in winter 08/09. First Cradle concert I ever missed. I've been to all of them ever since they started playing in Edmonton.
3. Dropped my phone in a puddle over the summer. It was out of order during a BSB concert and I could have taken better photos if it worked. lol.
4. I wish I didn't go photocopy our lotto ticket on 5th floor because I missed my chance to see him. lol.
5. Bought all my movies, I never watch them anymore.
6. Deleted my old blog. I lost my Ben Loka comment and I was so happy that he commented on one of my blog posts.

I only wish away small acts. I have had bigger problems but I would not change them. I love where I am and I would not change my life.

Not Much of a Secret

2011-11-26T11:17:00.001-08:00

My post secret until someone flagged it :)
I am not friends with him anymore. lol. not after all those dirty pics he sent me.

Day 4

2011-11-25T13:30:00.000-08:00

7 Things that Cross my Mind a Lot

1. Will I ever find a permanent position in my hospital or always luck out on finding temporary?

2. Will I ever open up to people at work and just be myself or am I always going to have my guard up? I wonder if they would like me if I was myself?

3. Should I call my grandparents today?

4. Where is Michael?

5. Should I just move back home? It would be a lot easier.

6. I wish Katie lived with me.

7. What would I do if I won the lottery?

Day Three

2011-11-24T17:29:00.000-08:00

EIGHT WAYS TO WIN MY HEART LOL

Seriously?? I always laugh at these kind of questions.

1. Loyalty. I love that. I will be completely loyal to him if he is loyal to me. 100%

2. A good cook. lmao. I prefer if he cooks because I can't. I do not want snide remarks about the fact that I do not cook. Times have changed.

3. Shows that he can trust me and gives me reasons to trust him. I say things that can make a person doubt me but I talk that way jokingly. Make me promise you something and I will stand by it 100%.

4. Sense of humor. I love people that can make me laugh.

5. He cannot be a douche. I dislike mean people and those that think too highly of themselves.

6. Show me how to do new things and the things I cannot do. Like skating, that would be fun to learn. I doubt romantic because I would be screaming the entire time :D

7. Just be kind to me and patient. I am scared of the world and it takes me a long time to ... idk, just go with it.

8. Take the initiative because I wont :)

Mugged

2011-11-24T14:35:00.000-08:00

lmao
Allison is a nut. Seriously.
Ok. So Allison got mugged last night and I was there for the ride.
My status was about us giving the mugger a ride to his "car"... I wanted to put Allisons name in my status but I thought maybe Tyrone would get mad so I did not mention her. I don't just go driving off with random men. No way. My sister made me go with her.

The Story:
Allison drove from Onion Lake to Edmonton and arrived at my place late at night. Roughly past midnight. She wakes me up and we go for a drive to pick up food.
We get back to my place and this guy approaches us and asks us if we had money to lend him. I say no and go into my house, leaving Allison to talk to him. All of a sudden the guy is in my house. He and Allison are talking as I am in my kitchen with my niece and nephew. I have no idea what they are talking about.
Then Allison calls me and asks me to go for a ride with her to take the man to his car. I was not going to let her go alone and I knew wouldn't let me stay home if i wanted too.
So we drive off and all I am thinking in my head "OMG I am going to die tonight, this guy is going to murder us, I can't believe we are driving with a person we do not know"
Ally and he were talking and I got so mad (in my head) when she mentioned she was just visiting me. I didn't want this guy (who was just in my house) to know I lived alone.
He took the money and said he would be right back.
Ally and I wait and she starts to doubt him and I am telling her it will be ok. Then minutes pass and I finally doubt him and laugh. I tell her "I think we got mugged" ... but now she doesnt want to loose faith.
It was her money that got stolen so she was mugged.

I am thankful that it was not a scary situation. People have had money stolen from them in violent ways. We are lucky the guy was nice.

I told my mom the story and she was freaked out. She was mad that I was laughing. I told her it was a polite mugging and she said there is no such thing.

TRUTHFULLY. I was scared. I was scared because the guy was in my house. I was scared because he had an idea that I lived on my own. I was scared because I know it would have went another way.
I didn't want Allison to go home the next day because I was really shaken up about it.

Day 2

2011-11-23T07:00:00.000-08:00

Nine things about myself

1. I am Cree. When I tell people this they have no idea what I am referring to.

2. I work in a hospital as a Unit Clerk. Again people have no idea what that is. All I can say is google it. JK. Its administrative work.

3. I have 5 sisters and 3 brothers. All of them are half or step- . I am the only child my parents had together. I am close with all of them.

- I have 2 brothers from my mom.

- I have 1 brother from my dad

- 2 Sisters from my dad.

- 2 Step sisters from my dads wife.

- 1 sister who is actually my cousin but we grew up calling each other sisters.

4. There are many things I do not know how to do and I will list as many as I can think of: I cannot drive, I cannot cook, I cannot skate, I cannot fix my computer problems, lol...

5. I am shy. I am so shy its horrible. I cannot change this about myself. It takes along time for me to open up and when I do I am not as quiet as people think.

6. I have never been drunk and I am proud of that. Lately I have started to become curious as to what it feels like. Whats the big deal? Is it fun?... I might try it one day. Has to be with Katie and Josie though.

7. I use to be Hard Up in LOVE with Heavy Metal music. But when my Uncle Ron passed away I chose to give it up. I refuse to listen to anything new, but I still love the songs previous to dumping it. Now I love all kinds of music.

8. I live alone. I have lived alone since I was 16. I got my own place because I wanted to go to a good school and not a reservation one. 8 years now I have been independent. BUT I did go back home for 5 months prior to going to school at Grant Mac. I just called that a really long visit.

9. I want to go live abroad. But I do not want to be far from my grandparents. I know they also do not want to to do it. I am still on the fence about trying it.

Day One

2011-11-22T14:35:00.000-08:00

1. ------ I like you and I wish you knew.

2. Mom- I wish you would not worry so much. You make yourself sick that way. Chris, Douglas, and I are all grown up now and we need to make our own choices and mistakes.

3. Dad- Thank you for being the best father to me. You are the ONLY one that checks up on me to see if I am ok, I am always happy when you call.

4. Katie- I trust only you completely.

5. Grandma Eliza- I miss you every day. I want to come home and take care of you but I am afraid I will be miserable with Turtle Lake life.

6. Grandpa Doug- You say I am your number one in your heart and I want you to know you are my number one in my heart. I refuse to accept one day you will leave me. I may kill myself if you do.

7. Hannah Rain- I call you monster but only because I love you so much it scares me. My baby sister, you are so precious to me.

8. ----- - I can't say your name because I have no courage. What I can say is I remember your blue eyes. I use to say it when I was young but I stopped when I was 21 because I wanted it to be someone else. But no, it was always you. You were my first love, my twisted teenage sweetheart. If I ever see you again in my life I will never tell you and I will never admit it is you.

9. Erik- You were not my first love. You were my first but I don't think I really loved you. Maybe I did but I really do not remember you now, just your first name. I know you put me through a lot of pain and heartache but I don't remember it. I don't remember your face. I just wanted you gone from my memory and I guess it worked.

10. Spencer, Dex, Cy, Craig- I miss you guys all the time. I miss the kind of friends you were to me. I have never been able to make new friends that were just like you. Growing up sucks and growing apart is lame.

My Uncle

2011-11-21T17:18:00.001-08:00

Seriously laughing. My uncles awesome.

Seungmin

2011-11-20T20:12:00.001-08:00

Photos he texted of where he was. So cool :)

Heart's

2011-11-19T15:39:00.000-08:00

The View

2011-11-18T19:16:00.001-08:00

Smart is Sexy

2011-11-17T15:31:00.000-08:00

Crazy

2011-11-15T19:00:00.000-08:00

Seriously??!!!!
OMG I cannot stop crying over the morning I had.
I am going to quit Wenect because of this

Amazing how little I experienced.
I mean... is it childish of me to be scared of something like this?? I have almost no experience with men that I did not know how to handle this.
I am still a little shocked over this morning.
I mean I was actually scared. lol. Scared of a person a ocean away. Katie calmed me down. Told me it was a funny thing and not scary. I feel like a child.
It was crazy for me but prolly other people have had it done to them. Lol.

It's one of a kind memory that I locked in my memory and saved on my phone.

Bucket List

2011-11-05T07:41:00.000-07:00

100 Things to do before I die :)
** This list was on my old blog. Some of them I already managed to do :)
** My list is as simple as can be. A few tough ones I know I probably will not get.

1. Fall in love. helplessly and unconditionally.

2. Find the love of my life

3. Marry him :)

4. Say "I Love You" for the first time to a man

5. Spend an entire day with just my sister Allison. No kids No Tyrone.

6. Learn to Drive.

7. Own a condo or a house.

8. Finish a Jane Austen Book.

9. Pay off my student loan.

10. See HIM Live DONE April 14, 2010

11. See Backstreet Boys Live DONE July 2011

12. Scrap book all my photos

13. Bungee Jump

14. Have a kiss under fireworks

15. Sleep under the stars.

16. Ride in a convertible with the top down.

17. Go up in a hot air balloon.

18. Learn to ballroom dance.

19. Have a kiss in the rain.

20. See a Cirque du Solei show

21. Go Whale watching

22. Finish a 1000 piece puzzle.

23. Watch a sunrise

24. Learn to Skate

25. Have a spa day with a friend.

26. Touch a shark

27. Go on a cruise.

28. Sleep on a hammock

29. Get a Massage.

30. Travel overseas at least once. Cross the ocean.

31. travel by plane.

32. Live in a foreign country.

33. Learn to play poker.

34. Stay in bed all day

35. See a NYC Broadway musical

36. Stay at the Glacier National park in Montana for a week.

37. Gamble in Las Vegas.

38. Visit the chapel in Vegas where my dad and step-mom got married.

39. See Miyavi Live

40. Go on a trip with just Katie and Josie

50. Catch a Fish

51. Jump off a cliff into deep water

52. Watch a meteor shower

53. See Mount Rushmore

54. Cook a Thanksgiving or Christmas meal

55. Visit Seoul, South Korea

56. Fly a kite. I honestly never done this.

57. Meet a celebrity

58. Learn a new language.

59. Have a secret make it to the Sunday Post Secrets

60. Visit 5 Movie locations

61. Make a foreign friend

62. Meet a foreign friend

63. Go out for a meal with Cy, Dex, Spencer, and Craig.

64. Make my grandparents get married.

65. Go camping with a special someone

66. Witness a birth of a child

67. Carve my name in a tree

68. Swim in the ocean

69. Go out on New Years

70. Attend my high school reunion

71. Ride in a Limo

72. Travel by train

73. Name a star

74. Learn to ride a horse. Maybe Douglas can show me.

75. Perform a kind Deed to 5 Strangers
1 DONE. Bought a hungry woman a meal
2
3
4
5

76. Experience a sunset

77. Visit Universal Studios

78. Experience being drunk.

79. Go to a kpop concert

80. Visit a castle

81. Walk on the Grand Canyon sky-walk

82. Have a 48 hour fight free visit with my brother Douglas. DONE September 2011

83. Follow through and finish 40 Days of Lent

84. Receive a love letter

85. Attend Mardi Gras

86. Make a New Years Resolution and keep it. Never Ever done this.

87. Bake a cake for someone special. Not out of a box.

88. Lay in a casket, still alive, just to see what it is like.

89. Live with someone (boyfriend, friend, family member) for more than a year

90. Learn to make bannok

91. Walk through the WEM haunted house with out screaming. I have been in it maybe 5 times already and it still scares me.

92. Conquer my fear of men LMAO LOL Just talk and do not blush :)

93. Slow dance under the stars no music

94. Play hide and seek with a group of people now as an adult lol.

95. Attend a music festival

96. Go on a romantic getaway

97. Be the best at my job. Not yet there.

98. Cook a foreign dish

99. Retire in Turtle Lake

100. Finish this list.

Sweet :)

2011-11-04T12:49:00.000-07:00

Koizora

2011-11-03T22:10:00.000-07:00

Worlds Saddest Movie

I keep wanting to watch it again but I cried too much the first time... so I avoid it. Maybe tomorrow :)

Gemini :)

2011-11-02T12:46:00.000-07:00

Monster

2011-11-01T12:57:00.000-07:00

The Latest photo of me and Hannah. Taken 2 weeks ago.

How can I love a single person so much? Hannah Rain is my most precious monster. lol. My baby sister. She can be so rotten and I get a kick out of teasing her. Thats a sister for you.

I love her, she is my little world.

My little boss.

Happy Halloween

2011-10-31T12:06:00.001-07:00

Canada :)

2011-09-11T12:53:00.000-07:00

Heading Home

2011-09-10T12:52:00.000-07:00

Last Day in Vegas

2011-09-09T12:44:00.000-07:00

Vegas

2011-09-08T12:30:00.000-07:00

Hoover dam

2011-09-07T10:24:00.000-07:00

Route 66 to the Grand Canyon

2011-09-06T09:32:00.000-07:00

Seriously. I always laugh when I look at this photo

I love Douglas

A western themed hotel we stayed at

Grand Canyon Sunrise

Sedona

2011-09-05T09:20:00.000-07:00

Airzona

2011-09-04T09:14:00.000-07:00

Utah

2011-09-03T09:10:00.000-07:00

Glacier National Park

2011-09-02T09:03:00.000-07:00

So cute my Baby Brother

Before the Border

2011-09-01T08:55:00.000-07:00

My Brother Chris

Still in Canada and Still in Alberta.
3:37AM
1 Hour away from the American Border
The most Ghetto hotel we stayed at :D
Lov'd it